Positive apprehension
 

well, it ends this weekend. my last days of renting, my last days of coming "home" to something ive been so used to doing, something so comfortable doing, for so long. my last days of "pseudo" responsibility.

i spent part of last night emptying and cleaning my bathroom, and all of a sudden my entire room looks super big. yea, its a good size anyways, and some of the stuff has been moved, but really, it doesnt look a whole lot different than it usually does. it FEELS different. Its not like ive even lived here that long, but its managed to grow some attachment in the year i have paid to borrow it. everything from blue toilet water competitions, to double movie nights, to girls on trampolines.

ive realized that this is a huge step, and i know life is going to be different, not so much in a bad way. its a really nice place, and i'll be with my sister who i havent really gotten to live with yet (plus she makes tiramisu); im just financially reluctant. the enduring struggle for most of us independent young people.

of course, if it wasnt pushed onto me, owning probably wouldnt happen for a long time.